Monday, June 25, 2007

The Vulnerability in Loyalty

photo by grassrootsmsw

"Loyalty cannot be blueprinted. It cannot be produced on an assembly line. In fact, it cannot be manufactured at all, for its origin is the human heart-the center of self-respect and human dignity. It is a force which leaps into being only when conditions are exactly right for it-and it is a force very sensitive to betrayal."

Maurice R. Franks

As a social worker, I am committed, devoted, and truthful to the goals of my work. The core of those goals come from my deep beliefs in serving and working with an intent to empower, advocate, and make unheard voices heard.

I am and have been loyal to many causes, people, and organizations. I have stood up, when noone else would, because I believed I recognized soul, integrity, and truthfulness.

Lately, my interpretations of who and what is honorable has proven to be skewed. Suddenly, I find myself on the 'pulpit', hoping to uphold truths and purpose, and those I am standing up for, are not there...they have missed the plot.

I am standing on uncertain ground. My core will continue to pursue the value of real and hopeful intent. My vulnerability in owning that, provides fear and sadness. The only consistency is my internal intuition and compass of morality.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

It can be so painful to find that what one has trusted is not what one thought. One's heart can be rent open. Even if one espouses a Buddhist spirituality, all the times one has lauded the changes and chances of life as being opportunities for growth, empowering ... it all seems to go out the window when one feels betrayal, a loss of innocence, a death of trust.